Fashionably Late

auto @ 2008-11-17T10:05:00

2008-11-17T15:06:52Z

tell me a secret. post anonymously :)

ask me anything.

auto @ 2008-10-28T22:31:00

2008-10-29T02:35:51Z

ive uploaded a few pictures to my flickr page and ive been trying to figure out this loud twitter thing i see alot of you guys using.. i signed up but it never sent my email to put my activation code in so i never get to the page that lets you post.

i spent the entire summer outside. my skin was tan for the first time in years... my girls and i had a blast spending every waking moment we could out doors and it was awesome. i had a great time with them and now that daylight is getting sparse i find myself back online.

i finished the huge blanket that i made out of handspun but still never photographed it! we carved pumpkins with the girls and decorated with cornstalks and gordes..

i had my gallbladder removed during a trip to the emergency room one night back at the end of august.

i had a lump removed from my leg.

oh and just in time for winter my body has decided to start stockpiling fat. just for fun.

i miss you guys!!!!

auto @ 2008-10-27T09:09:00

2008-10-27T13:09:37Z

i've been gone for so long that i dont know how to use the internet anymore

progress

2008-07-21T20:12:28Z

i finished the blanket about 3 days ago, maybe more now. i love it soooo much! i edged it in a deep charcoal colored yarn that i spun after putting the final stripes on. it is soooo big and so soft!

i also did some spinning, 3 new skeins.

pictures to follow when i get a free moment.

auto @ 2008-07-02T12:53:00

2008-07-02T17:17:28Z

an updated picture of the handspun blanket...
next picture will be of the completed blanket.
this is the most incredible thing ive ever made.
this was all yarn that ive spun that never sold.
yarn that ive wanted to use from the moment i spun it.
the colors draw me in and make me incredibly happy.
warm sheep fuzzies.

auto @ 2008-06-30T13:41:00

2008-06-30T17:43:08Z

i got my sleeve worked on again this weekend. im getting closer! i am dreading the work on the inside of my arm so bad! it was definitely more bitey on the backside of my arm than i imagined it would be but so worth it!

how to leave yourself open for attack

2008-06-11T14:09:36Z

i have always shyed away from posting questions in large communities on here.. and today i went and asked a stupid question in a very large community.. hahaha! i guess thats what happens when you dont fully think things through and hurry up to post something before that second cup of coffee.. ah well :)

anyone here on my list a tattoo artist? anyone want to help guide me in a new design? i want to get my next tattoo and i need help getting it drawn up.. as i was told in the community, it is my artists job to draw this. i am aware of this. i just dont want to do that! so if anyone is willing to help me, i dont really know if my idea will translate well into ink but i really hope i can find someone to make my idea real. the piece i want to get is going to be 3 princesses to represent my 3 girls. i want it to be a full forearm piece. i will pay whatever. i just want it perfect.

oh and some pictures as
- the freshly dyed wool.. i cant wait to spin this!

- here is the blanket i started.. this photo shows the length pretty well..

- a detail shot

auto @ 2008-06-09T15:14:00

2008-06-09T19:45:00Z

after sweating my ass off all weekend, i realize that i probably wont be able to keep drawing on my brows... i LOVE them drawn on, they look sooo much better than my real ones that have no arch and a bald spot where i had stitches when i was younger.. but i went to a family picnic on sat. and about an hour after being there i had no brows left.. i looked rediculous. people i hadnt seen in years saw me eyebrowless and i felt so naked and unattractive with the brows all run down into my face. im on day 2 of not shaving them off and they look so thick and ugly already... i guess i will probably let some hair grow, tweeze them like i hate to and still sort of draw the ends in if all goes like it is in my mind. ugh. i love my eyebrows but i cant walk around with them running down into my eyes just cause its hot outside. :((

in other news, i started an afghan with my handspun! I have had so much yarn sitting in my house for so long, yarn that ive spun and wanted to use since the moment i took it off the bobbin! the blanket looks so gorgeous already! its as wide as my queensize bed and its about 3 foot long so far and i cant stop crocheting it because i get so excited too see what it looks like with the next color added! not to mention its going fast because im using extremely bulky yarn, a j hook and some double crochet stitches haha..

well im off to go find that camera.. i still havent located it and i want to take some pictures of the dyed wool from the other day and the blanket i just started..

hope everyone has a great day!

auto @ 2008-06-05T14:14:00

2008-06-05T18:21:04Z

i did some dyeing last night!!!!! first time in AGES.. i think its been close to a year at least. i did all solids and mixed my dyes to make different shades and tints and i LOVE my results.. im gonna go find my camera so i can add a picture!

in other news, its hot as hell in my apt. right now.. i love this place so much but there is no central air and its been a while since i had to live without it so it will be an adjustment to say the least!

im still drinking coffee and its almost 230 in the afternoon.. i just cant get with it today.. im not used to lydia being home now that schools out and she has been a complete monster since her schedule is all screwed up.. im hoping once she gets used to not going it will be easier here for me.

and now im off to figure out what to make for dinner without heating this place up any worse! any dinner ideas? i dont have much in my fridge right now...

wooly fingers

2008-06-04T15:05:56Z

i finally have some handspun yarn porn to tease you with...

you can see the larger sizes on my flickr.. http://flickr.com/photos/automatic

hope you ladies enjoyed!

rain rain go away

2008-05-22T13:51:10Z

i have been keeping a journal since highschool... i have some old notebooks that i read through occasionally and i always enjoy reading what i did on a daily basis years later. so i think from now on i am just going to start tracking my days so my entries may not be that exciting but hey atleast i will be able to look back a few years from now and remember these days.

yesterday was pretty nice. i was up pretty early and got lydia off to school. a friend i havent talked to in a few years stopped by yesterday for about 2 hours and i had a chance to socialize a bit so that was really nice.

i spun some new yarn again yesterday.. its a bit overspun but the colors are so nice. i have found my favorite thickness to spin is really just a hair under worsted weight yarn.. honestly its my favorite to knit with too which is probably why my hands just spin that weight.. im still having a hard time branching out into a crazy designer yarn. i wonder if some people just arent cut out to spin like that? with me, i always tried to spin a consistent yarn and i worked hard for that goal and now i feel like i cant get away from those guides in my mind.. as if i could create better and my mind was more free to create before i knew those spinning rules.

i have been working with anna on spinning. shes been asking me for a few years now to teach her to spin so while i was spinning my latest on the Joy, i got the country spinner out for her and let her practice treadling. i did give her some wool to go with but it was hard for her to keep the wheel spinning in the same direction without going back and unspinning the wool.. she loved treadling and she is only 4 so im sure it wont be long before she figures it out.

i had a fun day with the girls yesterday despite the fact that amelia spilled a whole bag of sliced almonds all over the couch and stained the couch cover with scented lip oil that she should not have had.. it was still fun.. i made some home made pretzels with them, i gave them all a little hair cut and then they had a fun bubble bath.. and ice cream for dessert!

they are really growing up its so neat..

i wish i could video tape each moment of the day because i know before long these days will be faded memories of little dirty fingers and faces and next thing i know they will be using way too much make up and fighting over who gets in the bathroom next.. i cant imagine 3 little girls getting ready for school at about 15 years old.. time flies by so fast anymore.. i just dont want to forget the innocence of their faces.

oh and i thought of a new tattoo.. i want some nice script that says Live Through This... yeah its a title to an album but for me its more of a little reminder that no matter what happens i WILL live through this!

thanks again to all of you who are supportive of me and try to calm my crazy mind. i always love to have a new outlook on life and i am doing my best to stay positive.. thank you all so much for being there for me along the way!

i cant find the kodak so unfortunately these are grainy pictures.. cellphone away!

my newest stuff..

this was a really colorful top that i carded up with some sparkles.. its spun pretty thin and once it was carded, it became little miss muted.. still really pretty though!

this is some really nice earthy green plied with some of the colorful top that i carded for the second yarn.. i spun in some carded chunks and plied them together.. i really love this and might make a hat out of it.. i need to see it knitted.

MMMMMM :D the recipe for these can be found here.

yarn and stuffs...

2008-05-16T14:04:35Z

so i finally spun some yarn! it was so nice and it didnt feel forced like it had been which is a VERY good thing! I also joined ravelry.. so how many of you out there are on there too? i would love a little help with that site.. i dont really understand it yet and i want to get involved over there to give me some inspiration.

i also wanted to ask you guys how selling on etsy is going right now? I dont have a website anymore and i dont have the money to throw down on a domain name and hosting at the moment and having my stuff listed somewhere like that seems logical to me but i havent visited etsy in a while and i dont know how wool and yarn sales are there for someone like me who doesnt have alot of exposure right now.. so give me your thoughts on that if you can..

yesterday was a pretty intense day for me.
rick called me around 6:30 last night from work to tell me he had been burned pretty bad on a muffler of a lawnmower. he went to the hospital and they got him all fixed up... he has 2nd and 3rd degree burns. he has to go back today to have the burn cleaned and drained if there is any blistering to make sure infection doesnt set in.

and lydia had an amazing tantrum last night and also some behavior that just isnt her.. she got upset right when i was about to take them out to play. she always gets worked up which i am used to but last night she was being physically violent to both anna and amelia over going outside. i figured once she got out there she would chill and be fine but instead it seemed that going outside elevated the tantrum... its hard to describe the tantrum other than piercing screams, body stiffening, she was digging her fingernails into annas head at one point and she is so big and so strong that she was knocking me down when i tried to restrain her. i dont know who to talk to about this because im afraid that if i bring this to a professional's attention that they will try taking her away from me.. i even tried telling her if she didnt stop hurting her sisters that she was going to have to go live somewhere else.. none of that really makes sense to her though. i just dont know what to do. she is only a few inches shorter than me and she is only 7. she knocks me down when i try to use physical guidance with her and pretty soon shes going to have more leverage than i do.. i want to talk to someone about it i just dont want to chance someone professional thinking that they need to intervene and have my child taken from me. if anyone has any advice about this or know someone i could talk to about this, i would love to get some thoughts on this..

oh and on a lighter note.. i decided to commit to a 365 project over on flickr. i really want to do this and so far its pretty cool.. im sure ill have days where i dont want to do a self portrait but i think it will be really neat to look back at a whole year documented by photos.

well, i dont know whats in store for today but i hope it turns out nice. the rain always gets me down with its grey skies but im not going to let myself get caught up in it..

auto @ 2008-05-12T10:59:00

2008-05-12T15:54:41Z

hope all the mothers on my list had an awesome mothers day yesterday! I know i did! I went to Tandoor, and indian restaurant with my mother for a mothers day / my birthday lunch, just her and I. it was so nice! i had the delicious Chicken Tikka Masala that i cant get enough of and she had a dish that I cant remember the name of! hers was really good despite the fact that what ever it was had lentils in it and i dont really do lentils, it was still scrumdillyumptious! The girls spent the night at my mother-in-laws saturday night and I had an awesome evening without them :) Sounds terrible, I know! but with everything going on, having a break was the best gift ever!

So saturday I made some batts up, just like I planned! I spun a beautiful skein of yarn its pretty muted and boring for some handspinning but i really like it and it was so nice to spin again! i split the dyed top in half, carded half and now im spinning the other half up for some pretty 2ply.. i dont know what ill do with it but hey im spinning again! so yay :)

then it was tattoo time! my beautiful friend amy has been tattooing about 4 years now, she has done a few of my tattoos now and i just love that she draws up whatever i want and goes to town! i have a kick ass half sleeve now! i have way too many tattoo ideas and i just want them all now! she puts up with me being all giddy and saying "thats so awesome" way too much so you can imagine how annoying that must be :P needless to say, im in love with my new ink and shes coming back tonite and we are getting a friend tattoo.. its going to be a cartoony skull guy with knitting needles behind him, the skull is to rep her and the needles of course are to rep me.. the needles are gonna be pink for me since im loving pink forever and a day now and the yarn is going to be purple for her favorite color... we are gonna try to incorporate a throw up from old-school graf artist JA since those are our initials and we both love graffiti... so we are super excited :)

New ink :)

right after it was finished.. another 3 am dealio hehe!

and here is amy tattooing herself...

and here is amy's finished ink.. a zombie head in honor of zombie month... go on demand on comcast and go to fearnet.. you have to watch the zombie movie Fido! it is the shizzzz :)

that is all!

auto @ 2008-05-10T13:27:00

2008-05-10T17:33:33Z

the girls are getting ready to leave for the night.. ive been so drained from watching them the last few weeks.. they really take alot out of me. it seems that they are all so high needs.. but i love them! they are all growing up so much too, its been a joy to watch them play the few times that they really get going and actually get along! they make me wish i was their age again!

and after they leave i plan to break the carder out and bust out some batts, maybe try to list some on ebay or something. i need to rid myself of all this dyed fiber that just stares at me. i think maybe if i get some new dyeing on the stove i might find it easier to get back in the spinning groove. i need color!!!

and i might be getting some new ink tonite if all goes as planned. im thinking its going to be flowers as a part of a sleeve. i have been tossing around the idea of getting a ball of yarn and knitting needles tattooed on me but after looking around on the net, there is quite a bit of those tattoos.. so maybe i will just wait on that and see how i feel after i get some flowers! im going for color too.. i want a beautiful - in - your - face - color sleeve. and im thinking matching stars on each forearm.. too many ideas, not enough empty skin!

so heres to a productive day, smiles and sunshine!

hope everyone elses day is great too!

auto @ 2008-04-02T13:52:00

2008-04-02T17:56:48Z

out with the old...

2008-03-31T20:54:41Z

and in with the new!

i deleted lots of journal entries, in fact, i think i only left 4 of them! im all about purging and cleansing right now :) its been a wonderful healer of my soul...

i have been so happy lately, feeling like the girl i used to be 13 years ago.. being silly, laughing and thinking about ME :)

im in love with life right now and in love with spring.

i have some new pics of myself and some new tattoos... put some old piercings back in and finding my way to what makes me happy. and i think im ready to start spinning again! i almost got my stuff out last night so maybe i will do that tonite... no need to spin negative energy into yarn right? no more selling for me though, it will just be for me.. unless someone wants to buy it and says so.. i dont have the money for a website nor the ability to get to the post office on a regular basis so selling is not really in the cards for me right now.

but yay for happiness!

yay for loving life!

raymond

2007-01-03T06:23:21Z

raymond
Originally uploaded by she's automatic.

Losing a pet is like loosing your best friend. I will never forget you Ray. He was the sweetest, most kind kitty ever.

He died on Anna's birthday. He came inside on thursday night, just like any other night, he jumped up on the counter to get some fresh water and we yelled at him like we always did when he was on the counter. The next day he could hardly walk and his fur looked funny. Saturday afternoon, I sat by him all day as he slowly slipped away. I laid down on the couch for about 10 min and when I got back up to check on him, he was gone. I miss him so much. I got him when he was 6 weeks old, he had been bottle fed and was the craziest little kitty guy I ever did meet. kitty cat love forever ray. I miss you so much.

auto @ 2005-04-02T03:01:00

2005-04-02T08:02:24Z

Hi Livejournal and all who inhabit it.